MERRY CHRISTMAS my ++GIFT++ for you this year is my offering of my vulnerability of this passage. I am in no way endorsing bloodshed please do not interact with this post if you have a major trigger of selfharm or a repulsion to blood. all pics R mine and all blood is real. be gentle with your judgements, this is a look into my soul
blood is our purest force of life, it gauges a state between life and death and represents our essense/death/renewal/birth/sacrafice//love/hate/control/devotion/pain/pleasure/wounds/healing
i will begin with the old testament of the bible. earlier in the 0ld testament every altar used for worship required a blood sacrifice.. innocent centered animals such as lambs were sacrificed and their blood was poured or smeared on the altar as part of making atonement. the innocence must be slaughtered to protect ours
animal blood sacrifices in the bible show how all sin separates us from holiness and the debt must be paid, the animal thru blood frees us. Jesuswould be the perfect SACRAFICE, bleeding to pay for the sins of the #world. Blood is the only currency accepted by God and we can use it as a way to reach the divine
violence and the removal of innocence is what that currency costs.
"Basic to both animal and human sacrifice is the recognition of blood as the sacred life force in man and beast. Through the sacrifice—through the return of the sacred life revealed in the victim—the god lives, and, therefore, man and nature live. The great potency of blood has been utilized through sacrifice for a number of purposes—e.g., earth fertility, purification, and expiation." deities themselves don't have blood like we do therefore it makes it a powerful fuel for ussssssssszzzsssss
"the gods smelled the sweet savor, and collected like flies over a sheep sacrifice"
Epic of Gilgamesh 11:161
I believe in EVERYTHING, and that includes much beyond my orthodox christian beliefs including an otherworldly mysticism including witchcraft and many forms of magick. Every single one of our choices is a spell binding and it brings us either closer to Heaven or Hell (Not in a literal sense, but in a love/hate fire/water death/life sense) Magick all around the world is based on the simple construct of transaction, you give so that in return you take. My lovers favorite idea: Every blessing ignored turns into a curse. Whether you give worship, time, morals, CONTROL, all religions and magic is based on this concept. Knowing is not enough, you must act with your beliefs. Everything you do is a sacrifice and as we move into this new ever evolving world we start to prioritize comfort over discipline which results in itself as its own sacrifice. SACRAFICE without transformation is just LOSS pretending to be HOLY
Selfharm is extremely evil because it uses the ritual of blood letting for our selfish desires to be washed of our self hatred and guilt. When I would hurt myself it felt like the illusion of discipline, like because I cut I could distract myself and let go of what was perceived innately wrong with me. It was disgustingly satanic (again in the literal and non literal---the symbolical of selfishness and purest evil form)) My harm was ego centered {as everything i do is…} i was challenging how far ii could go. wasted suffering is the death of creation. Enough suffering is induced on us in exchange of consciousness and self identity. YOU ARE BLEEDING FOR NOTHING its dripping through the soil and feeding the demons You are losing your soul under the illusion of release
i am probably/definitely more vulnerable than i should ever be but look at me look at me bleed and watch my suffering feel me until it makes you vomit. blud holds so much potential for powerful rituals
painting is very painful for me mentally and physically and i have to push myself past my limits. i will sit for 12 hours in the same position until my fingers, my spine, and bones begin to lock and groan. Meanwhile my mind is racing with suffering of how terrible it looks and how i have failed. The only thing that pulls me through is TRUST. i at minimum trust myself to fail and go on. everything i have ever loved requires a sacrifice and my paintings are no different. i have sold my soul. mixed within the oil paints is spit, tears, snot, blood, cum. Its a ritual, an exchange where blood becomes fuel and the body becomes object. I do engage in personal blood rituals (body focused) and non body focused rituals for every painting and hold them as an extremely sacred and important part of me. when i turned 18 i had a few hour ceremony ritual with candles, holy water, gold, and writing to angels where i prefusely cried for the next 3-4 hours after it was done. but it was needed in exchange for what i wanted {ultimately divine guidance}
We all engage in sacrifices and rituals everyday in the things we do whether its through gluttony and uncontrolled consumption of content (example: instagram reels) or even through the food we eat (death of innocence, animal bloodshed repackaged as a satisfying 1.99 meal deal from fast food corporations) The price is always paid. conscious sacrifice is control, unconscious bleeding is loss. WHAT HAVE YOU SOLD YOUR SOUL FOR?
not all blood has to be wasted
My life is completely held up by magic. My lover and I have matching scars that through a ritual (originally rooted in pain) we got within the same day on Jan 11 2024, mine is on the right while his on the left perfectly mirroring each other when we stand across another as seen in this sketch of our scars corseting and tying us together. these r rituals that i believe have caused us to become mirroring souls as well as eternally tied together
!!!!we are completely spellbound!!! and here is another sacrifice my lover carries, his 17 scar, a gift for me for my birthday! One of my favorite numbers! This is NOT self harm but a dedication with intention and careful planning
uughgjfkldfmsfj i just love him so much we twinnin on dat freak spectrum ^_^
whether its for love, creation, self loathing, attention, ego, war, power, watch where your blood (life force) is being spent
UR BLEEDING FOR NOTHING !
