MERRY CHRISTMAS my ++GIFT++ for you this year is my offering of my vulnerability of this passage. I am in no way endorsing bloodshed please do not interact with this post if you have a major trigger of selfharm or a repulsion to blood. all pics R mine and all blood is real. be gentle with your judgements, this is a look into my soul
blood is our purest force of life, it gauges a state between life and death and represents our essense/death/renewal/birth/sacrafice//love/hate/control/devotion
i will begin with the old testament of the bible. earlier in the 0ld Testament, especially Leviticus, every altar used for worship required a blood sacrifice.. animals were sacrificed and their blood was poured or smeared on the altar as part of making atonement "For the life of the flesh is in the blood and I have given it to you on the alter to make atonement for your souls " Leviticus 17:11
animal blood sacrifices in the bible show how all sin separates us from holiness and all sins debt must be paid, the animal takes our sins from ourselves. Jesus would be the perfect attonement, bleeding to pay for the sins of the world. Blood is the only currency accepted by God, and our sin is the debt.
violence and the removal of innocence is what that currency costs.
"Basic to both animal and human sacrifice is the recognition of blood as the sacred life force in man and beast. Through the sacrifice—through the return of the sacred life revealed in the victim—the god lives, and, therefore, man and nature live. The great potency of blood has been utilized through sacrifice for a number of purposes—e.g., earth fertility, purification, and expiation." deities themselves don't have blood like we do therefore it makes it a powerful fuel for ussssssssszzzsssss
"the gods smelled the sweet savor, and collected like flies over a sheep sacrifice"
Epic of Gilgamesh 11:161
I believe in EVERYTHING, and that includes much beyond christianity including witchcraft and many forms of magick. Every single one of our choices is a spell binding and it brings us either closer to Heaven or Hell (Not in a literal sense, but in a love/hate fire/water death/life sense) Magick all around the world is based on the simple construct of transaction, you give so that in return you take. My lovers favorite idea: Every blessing ignored turns into a curse. Whether you give worship, time, morals, CONTROL, all religions and magic is based on this concept. Knowing is not enough, you must act with your beliefs. Everything you do is a sacrifice and as we move into this new ever evolving world we start to prioritize comfort over discipline which results in itself as its own sacrifice. SACRAFICE without transformation is just LOSS pretending to be HOLY
Selfharm is extremely evil because it uses the ritual of blood letting for our selfish desires to be washed of our self hatred and guilt. When I would hurt myself it felt like the illusion of discipline, like because I cut I could distract myself and let go of what was perceived innately wrong with me. It was disgustingly satanic (again in the literal and non literal---the symbolical of selfishness and purest evil form)) My harm was ego centered {as everything i do is…} i was challenging how far I could go. Wasted suffering is the death of creation. Enough suffering is induced on us in exchange of consciousness and self identity. you have to stop hurting yourself. you are bleeding for nothing. You are losing your soul under the illusion of release
i am probably/definitely more vulnerable than i should ever be but look at me look at me bleed and watch my suffering feel me until it makes you vomit. blud holds so much value it's so wrong to waste its potential
painting is very painful for me mentally and physically and i have to push myself past my limits. i will sit for 12 hours in the same position until my fingers, my spine, and bones begin to lock and groan. Meanwhile my mind is racing with suffering of how terrible it looks and how i have failed. The only thing that pulls me through is TRUST. i at minimum trust myself to fail and go on. everything i have ever loved requires a sacrifice and my paintings are no different. i have sold my soul. mixed within the oil paints is spit, tears, snot, blood, cum. Its a ritual, an exchange where blood becomes fuel and the body becomes object. I do engage in personal rituals and hold them as an extremely sacred and important part of me
We all engage in sacrifices and rituals everyday in the things we do whether its through gluttony and uncontrolled consumption of content (example: instagram reels) or even through the food we eat (death of innocence, animal bloodshed repackaged as a satisfying 1.99 meal deal from fast food corporations) The price is always paid. conscious sacrifice is control, unconscious bleeding is loss. WHAT HAVE YOU SOLD YOUR SOUL FOR?
not all marks are wounds and not all blood is wasted
My life is completely held up by magic. My lover and I have matching scars, mine is on the right while his on the left perfectly mirroring each other when we stand across another as seen in this sketch of our scars corseting and tying us together
We are completely spellbound and here is another sacrifice my lover carries, his 17 scar, a gift for me for my birthday! One of my favorite numbers! This is NOT self-harm but dedication.
uughgjfkldfmsfj i just love him so much we twinnin on dat freak spectrum ^_^
whether its for love, creation, self loathing, attention, ego, war, power, watch where your blood (life force) is being spent
UR BLEEDING FOR NOTHING !
